Insalubrious
I am too much and not enough all at the same time. I have always been too much and not enough at the same time.
Insalubrious.
That's a word I learned not 30 seconds ago!! It means not conductive to health or
Unhealthy.
My name is Miyahcore and I am NOT healthy.
Not physically, not mentally, never have been, but I hope to be one day!!
I'm taking steps now, at 20, to better myself but... processing 20 years of ANYTHING takes time and I'm incredibly impatient. I want to feel better now. I want to do better now. I want to be at peak health, both physically and mentally, now.
My therapist and I are working on my patience. She keeps reminding me that everything takes time. I remind myself that: This time will pass anyway. Whether I decide to do better, try to feel better, or just do absolutely nothing, the time will pass regardless. It's reassuring to me that I AM doing something about my health even though it would be so much easier, so much more fun, to just be reckless and insane.
